Update for 1/9

Truth be told here, I'm struggling!  It's not that I'm not getting things done. I am. But I'm not getting them done as well or as quickly as I had hoped!  I wanted to get my bedroom - and most of my house - cleaned and organized over the last week. That, unfortunately, didn't happen. Mostly because I this is my first full day since before Christmas Vacation. The kids have either had a delay or a day off since Dec. 20 or 21...  So I have yet to really get a good, full day, put in to this house. And now that I do, I'm exhausted.

Also, since my food budget has been cut I'm struggling to create the healthy veggie filled meals I wanted to. I started building the menu, and I still am, but this last week it's been really hard to not just eat HotDogs every day.  Real food is EXPENSIVE!  And I know they say "you pay now or you pay later" but if you don't have it now, it's easy to fall in to those habits.

 I did find a place to get Local Raw Honey, now I just need to come up with the cash to go get some. But they are also going to sell me wax, so YEAH me, I'll have everything I need (once I get it) to make my salves, balms and syrups for the shop. That's a plus, and a big move in the right direction...

I'm having some issues finding the time to get on the gazelle too!  I have it set up in the Livingroom so I don't have to struggle to put it up and take it down any more, that's a plus. But finding the time to get on it is killing me, especially with all this extra work for me to do.

But every day is a new day. I AM seeing some changes being made.  I AM getting things done. Just slower than I had hoped!  I really need to focus on that fact! I'm not failing! The ONLY way I can fail, is if I quit, and I'm not doing that! Hell, thanks to the changes I've already made, I couldn't go back if I wanted to, the smell of all the boxed foods we used to eat every day makes me sick now.  I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing?!?

And I KNOW once I get things done, I AM going to keep them done! So I suppose I should stop focusing on how slowly things are getting done and instead focus on the fact that they are...

Keeping my head up!

Starting My Journey - Goals

I define myself in a great many ways. But I don't ever feel as if any of those definitions truly fit me well. I am a Mother, but I not the mother I want to be. I am a Woman, but I look in the mirror and don't love what I see. I'm a Pagan Witch, but I have gotten side tracked from my path. And quite frankly, I could go on like this forever. So I have decided it's time for some changes! I'm hoping that creating a place where I can share this journey to finding me will help me to focus on that journey, as well as the destination.

So what are my goals? What do I want to be? Who do I want to be? I suppose I should really define those things which I hope to get here.  So here goes...

I sat down with a pen & paper and made a list of all my goals. Some may seem simple, others may seem like they need a 10 year plan, but they are all goals which I hope to fulfill over this journey.


Personal -

1. 75% Vegetarian Diet
2. Daily Workouts
3. Daily Meditation & Energy Work
4. Daily Devotional Ritual
5. Lose Weight - Goal 155-165lbs
6. Learn to Kickbox
7. Learn Tai-Chi
8. Learn Yoga
9. Earn a Ph.D. in Holistic Health & Wellness
10. Earn Degrees in Comparative Religion 
11. Earn Degree in Immunology
12. Learn Middle English
13. Learn Latin
14. "Master" Craft

Household -

1. Make a Meal Plan
2. "Perfect" and Use Household Notebook
3. Fully Clean & Organize House, Cupboards & Closets
4. Compost & Recycle Everything Possible
5. Grow & Preserve Our Fruits & Veggies 
6. Create a Diet that's 75% Fruit & Veggie
7. Plastic Free
8. Teflon Free
9. Chemical Free
10. GMO & Chemical Free Diet
11. NO MORE FAST FOOD
12. No Pre-Packaged Food - All From Scratch

Business -

1. Open Etsy Shop - DONE!!
2. Build Website
3. Become Yearly Vendor at Local Vendor Shows
   - Renaissance Festival
   - Pagan Pride Day
4. Open Local Storefront
5. Teach In-store "Classes"
   - Natural Living
   - Holistic Parenting
   - Holistic Health 101
   - Growing & Using Herbs
   - Religious Tolerance
6. Publish Books
   - Sabbat Celebration
   - Year & a Day Course
   - Daily Witchery
   - Herbs & Oils
   - Healthy Living Cookbooks
   - Vax Free Health & Children
7. Create & Market Wholesale Lines to Major Metaphysical & Holistic Retailers
   - Jewelry
   - Cosmetics
   - Cleaners
8. Earn an income of $5000/mo or more

Financial -

1. Pay off ALL debt.
2. Buy a House
3. Buy Burial Plots
4. Get Life Insurance ($750K for Jay, $150K for Me)
5. Vow Renewal Service & Reception (Dream Wedding)
6. College Funds for All Kids